Thursday, 22 March 2012

When the Darkness Comes


This really a cheating post as its been posted on my old blog before. However I am poorly with a virus and a need a post for this months Mental Health Carnival.

This is a poem I wrote about how depression feels for me.


When the Darkness comes I can't breath,
My head pounds and my moth goes dry.

When the Darkness comes I just want to hide,
Loneliness is my friend.

When the Darkness comes  I cry and cry,
I don't always know why.

When the Darkness comes I am scared,
Panic rises inside me.

When the Darkness comes I am paralysed,
I wish I could run away.

When the Darkness is gone I am free,
Until the next time it appears.

Wednesday, 21 March 2012

This Week I Am Mainly Listening To....

Echoes by Will Young


Sssh don't tell anyone but I voted for him to win Pop Idol. I have always been a fan and I am really enjoying his new album. 

Its easy to listen to and rather catchy, I suggest you all run out a buy it now!

Monday, 19 March 2012

The 10th Ending to 99 Reasons Why by Caroline Smailes.


99 Reasons Why is Caroline Smailes new book and has been released today. It’s not any old book it’s a book with a difference!

It is only being realised as a ebook and comes with 9 different endings which I personally find quite exciting. I frequently find endings to books disappointing.

Readers navigate the different endings by answering multi choice questions on the kindle or the spinning wheel on the ipad or iphone.

Caroline has written an extra 2 endings, one hand written one which will be auctioned off for charity and one that I (and some other bloggers) have to host.

99 Reasons which is just £2.99 and is available from Amazon for the Kindle and from itunes.
I have a copy to read so once I have I shall do a little review for you.

If you haven’t read the book and plan to then don’t read on as the 10th ending is below!

The 10th Ending 


99: the reason why I was only worth ninety-nine quid
It’s been six days since the little girl in the pink coat went missing and me Uncle Phil’s in me bedroom.
We’ve been watching the little girl in the pink coat’s mam on the news. She was appealing to the public for witnesses.
‘Didn’t realise she had a mam,’ I says, looking at me telly.
‘Everyone’s got a mam, pet,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
‘She sold her story to The Sun,’ I says, looking at me telly.
‘Got a few quid,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
I nod.
‘She wanted nowt to do with that bairn before all this,’ me Uncle Phil says, looking at me telly.
‘Do you know where she is?’ I asks me Uncle Phil.
‘Belle?’ me Uncle Phil asks me.
I nod.
‘She’s safe,’ me Uncle Phil says to me. ‘Your mam’s keeping an eye on her.’
‘Can I be her mam?’ I asks me Uncle Phil.
‘No, pet, you’re a filthy whore,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
I nod.
‘Can you make Andy Douglas come back, Uncle Phil?’ I asks me Uncle Phil.
Me Uncle Phil shakes his head.
‘I love him,’ I tell me Uncle Phil.
‘Andy Douglas is your brother, pet. You didn’t seriously think Princess Di was your mam, did you?’ me Uncle Phil asks me.
I nod.
‘You’re a cradle snatcher just like your mam,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
I nod.
‘Your mam miscarried when she found out I’d been banging Betty Douglas. Betty was expecting you,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
I don’t speak.
‘When you was born, your mam went mad and I ended up buying you from Betty Douglas for ninety-nine quid,’ me Uncle Phil says.
‘Ninety-nine quid?’ I asks me Uncle Phil.
‘I paid a hundred but got a quid change for some chips for your mam and dad’s tea,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
‘You bought me?’ I asks me Uncle Phil.
I’m a little bit sick in me mouth.
‘It was the right thing to do,’ me Uncle Phil says to me. ‘I got Betty Douglas pregnant straight away with Andy.’
‘I’m pregnant,’ I says to me Uncle Phil. ‘I’m pregnant with me brother’s baby,’ I says, and then I throws up on me purple carpet.
‘You’re a filthy whore,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
‘What am I going to do?’ I asks me Uncle Phil.
‘You’re going to have the baby,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
‘Have me brother’s baby?’ I asks me Uncle Phil.
‘Then I’m giving it to Betty Douglas to bring up,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
‘You what?’ I says to me Uncle Phil.
‘It’s the right thing to do,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
‘I can’t—’ I says to me Uncle Phil.
‘It’s either that or I’ll make you disappear,’ me Uncle Phil says to me.
I don’t speak.
I’m thinking, they’re all a bunch of nutters.

Friday, 16 March 2012

Best Gift Ever!

As a blogger that write reviews I get send quite a lot of goodies and presents. I actually had to explain to the UPS guy that has been to my house everyday this week that I don't spend my days shopping I write a review blog.


There have been some great parcels this week including Jaffa Cakes but the best gift I got this week was this...




BG made them at pre-school and she was so exited to give them to me. I very impressed she managed to keep it a secret as well.


I am one happy mummy. 

Wednesday, 14 March 2012

Mental Health Carnival - January and February

When I started the mental health carnival last year, it was originally just going to be a one off but so many people wanted to be involved that now its a monthly feature.

A new blogger hosts it every month and so far its been really successful. The purpose of the carnival is to share our stories to show 1) you are not alone and 2) its nothing to be ashamed off.


January's carnival was hosted at In A Bun Dance and you can read it here .


February's carnival was hosted at Mrs Shorties Mind and you can read that here


The next carnival is being hosted at Liberal England on 26th March and you can email him your posts to bonkers.hall@btinternet.com


If you want to host a carnival then leave a message on the Mental Health Carnival Page