Thursday, 12 April 2012

Crash and Burn

I am ill again for the 5th time already this year. I have cystitis which I know is not serious or life threatening but after a virus two weeks ago were I lost my voice plus sinusitis a few months before that my body is ready to give up.

I am tired mentally and physically and in dire need of a holiday which thankfully is soon.  I have spent the last year working my butt off to make a success of my blogs and freelance work, travelled around the country and of course been a mum and all that entails.

I can feel myself slipping into the darkness and if I am not careful I am going to get sucked in and then we are in real trouble.

Mental Health wise I have been good for a while now but if I am not careful and don’t look after myself it’s really easy for me to slip into depression without even realising it.  I have to look after my mental health as well as my physical health. It’s actually taken me a long time to realise that!

I have a habit of working, working, working and then I crash and burn and as I get older it gets harder to recover.  It started when I went back to college at 21 and at times had 3 jobs plus classes!!  I did that for almost 5 years as I moved on a degree and I got to the point where something had to give and I had to drop some work, tighten my budget and give myself some time. Working 7 days a week is not good for you.

So from Friday I am taking a 3 week break from my blogs, I am going to schedule some posts in and then switch off the emails.  I still have other work to do and then I am actually away on holiday for a little while and will (try to) take a social media break for at least a week and recharge.

I am holding on for dear life trying not to slip into the abyss. 

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  1. You need to take a break. Something needs to give. Hugs and see you on the other side xx

  2. Thinking of you my lovely, stay strong and remember we are all here as a shoulder to lean on should you need it xx

  3. Hi Carol, I can totally relate to what your saying. Its important to look after you, especially when your a mum and you work. Have a lovely break and we will see you when you get back.

  4. Look after yourself. It's no fun being ill all the time. But its good you recognise the early signs of depression and can do something about it.
    Your run your blogs not your blogs running you. Hence why I don't blog as much I would like.
    Have a nice break

  5. Take care carol and have a great holiday x

  6. How do you come with sinus problems I have so much trouble. Take care sweetie x

  7. Enjoy the break Carol and look forward to coming back rejuvinated! x

  8. Take care and I hope the break brings some relief. I really identify with your story and came here via Jo at Slummy single mummy where she featured me on her blog carnival. I see you are in Tiny Acorns - Tim over at Dotterel Press is publishing my anthology of mental health guest posts over at Nowriggling. We HAVE to get that message out there. You are doing a brilliant job x