We all have low days, I call them my blah days. Days where we feel down and low, it could be because of the weather, we’re have a fat day or it’s just gone all wrong. I would take a lifetime of those days over one day of depression.
When my depression kicks in I don’t just want to stay in bed a little bit longer, I want to stay there all day. I alternate between wanting to sleep to wanting to cry constantly. I call my depression my darkness but that’s what happens to my world, it goes dark. A thick fog appears and it pushes me down and I can’t get out of it.
That feeling of dread you get when you think something bad is going to happens lays heavy at the pit of my stomach. I get paranoid and have to stay away from the internet as everything negative I see written I think is aimed at me.
I want to be left alone to just be, I don’t want to talk, I don’t want a hug and no matter how much chocolate you throw at me it’s not going to cheer me up.
Its hard to explain to people that don’t have any mental health problems. You tell them you have depressions and often they ask me “what are you depressed about” in the ‘you have a nice home, a family and friends tone’. They can’t understand why I would feel this way, it makes me want to shout “I’m not depressed I have depression!”
Some people still think that depression is trivial and not a genuine health condition. They're wrong. Depression is a real illness with real symptoms, and it's not a sign of weakness or something you can 'snap out of' by 'pulling yourself together'. NHS Website
Depression doesn't last a day it lasts a lifetime.Image: Salvatore Vuono / FreeDigitalPhotos.net