Monday, 31 October 2011

Music Monday - Bottom of the River

A funny thing happened Wikio put me in their list for music blogs, which means I know get emails about music reviews which is awesome. My dream job is a music journalist, I could so spend the rest of my life writing about music, hence my Musical Week.

Anyway I was asked if I would listen to a bands called Delta Rae's new track Bottom of the River. I have never heard of them before so I gave it a listen and well I love it. 

Its short but so addictive the listen to, the lead singers voice is amazing. Its a real southern american gospel song.

I can't find much else they have done in the past apart from some cover versions but I can't wait to hear more.

They have made a really creepy video and its perfect for Halloween hence why I sharing it with you today.

If you want to hear more you can visit their Youtube Channel, you can also download this track for free on their website Delta Rae    

So here is Delta Rae and Bottom of the River 

Sunday, 30 October 2011

The Sunday Chill Out

I'm feeling all bluesy this weekend, so my Sunday Chill Out tracks comes from Billie Holiday.

Here is One For My Baby (and one more for the road), sit back and chill out. 

Saturday, 29 October 2011

Sing Along Saturday - I Put a Spell on You

As its Halloween on Monday I thought I would have a Halloween inspired Sing Along Saturday.

The track I have gone with it I Put a Spell on You, the trouble I have was picking what version. 

In the end I had to go with this one.......Nina Simone 

Friday, 28 October 2011

Friday Song - When Your Strange

Friday Song is track that reflects my week. 

Its been an odd one this week full of colds, tears and making Halloween decorations!

This track reflects my week quite well for me..... The Doors, People are Strange 

Thursday, 27 October 2011

Tesco Book Review - The Notebook by Nicolas Sparks

Tesco asked me if I wanted to help them with an experiment. They want to see if they could group books by feelings and moods rather than genre.

These moods are:

Books to Carry You Away
Books to Make You Think and Talk
Books to Turn Your Heart in Somersaults

I liked the idea of this so I choose a book from the Books to Turn Your Heart in Somersaults section.

I choose The Notebook by Nicolas Sparks, I hadn’t heard about this book so had no preconceptions.

Without giving the while story away (as its quite short), The Notebook is a love story told through the Notebook and old letters which is read every day by Noah to his companion in an old people’s home.

It’s a simple story of lost and found love and the first half of the book is really emotional and you are desperate to find out more. Will they? Won’t they? Who will she choose? And it really does get your heart turning somersaults the way Nicolas Sparks describes their love and their first meeting after many years apart.

However the story in the Notebook ends on a cliff-hanger (which is exciting) and then the rest of the story is told through letters and Noah’s memories and it doesn’t work as well. I found it really disappointing rather than bittersweet which is what I think the author is going for.

It is a lovely story and the first half does make your heart turn somersaults but the second half was a real disappointment.

This book gets 3 out of 5 from me.

The Notebook is available from Tesco Books for £3.86

Wednesday, 26 October 2011

How Do You Stop Your Depression Effecting Your Child?

One of the things that worried me in my pregnancy was how my depression would affect my child when it was born. Would I have post natal depression? Would that stop me bonding with my child? I was quite fortunate that I didn’t have PND but I have had bouts of depression since she has been born.

I have days when I don’t want to leave my bed let alone the house and so far that really hasn’t affected BG too much. We tend to have a duvet day and I make sure we have fun and she doesn’t get bored or feel neglected. Even on my lowest day I manage to hide it from her or at least I did until this afternoon.

Today started at really well, we went to play group, did some shopping, back some cakes and then BG did some painting and that’s where it went downhill. BG doesn’t often do painting at home we have a very small space and there isn’t really anywhere for her to do it without getting it everywhere. BG can’t just use a paintbrush she has to get her hands in and make the biggest mess ever.

She kept asking to do some painting so I gave in and got them out for her, asking her not to do hand painting and just to use the brushes. Of course she ignored my and within 30 seconds she was elbow deep in paint. I turned around to get BG another piece of paper when she walked to the coffee table to get a wipe for her hands, she leant on the sofa with her hands and left two paint handprints on the sofa, this is when I burst in to tears.

I just sat on the sofa sobbing staring at these two greeny brown handprints. I reached for the wipes to start cleaning the mess when BG who was still covered in paint started crying. So there I am trying to comfort BG without getting paint anywhere else while still wiping the handprints off.

Depression sucks big time!

We finally got cleaned up and the handprints are gone and we sat and had a big cuddle until we both calmed down.

As she gets older it’s getting harder to hide the crazy. I don’t want BG to be the girl with the strange mum that doesn’t leave the house and cries all the time. How do I stop this affecting her?

I can’t make it just go away; there isn’t a ‘cure’ for it. She’s too young to understand what’s going on, she just thinks she’s made mummy sad and that in its self makes me sad.

I don’t know what to do. 

Image: Master isolated images /

Saturday, 22 October 2011

For Sandy

I just read a post on Baby Baby called The Little Girl and the Diet which has just made me sobbed. 

I can't put in words what I want to say to Sandy so here is track to show her.

This is for everyone that has ever been made to feel less than perfect. 

Pink, F*ckin Perfect (contains swear words)

Sing Along Saturday - Puddle of Mud

Tonight I am off to local gig with my dad.  4 bands are playing including SOiL and Puddle of Mudd.

I am really looking forward it, I love small gigs and its great to have something local to go to. And of course its cool to go to a gig with your dad *cough*.

My Sing Along Saturday comes from Puddle of Mudd and is probably the only one you will know of there's (it is for me!)

Its called She Hates me and is the clean version with the swear words bleeped out (sorry)

Monday, 17 October 2011

Music and Mental Health Carnivals

As this blog tends to be about either music or mental health I thought I would run some carnivals and see what the rest of you have to say on the subjects!

Mental Health Carnival - 1st November

It can be on any aspect of mental health, I'm not fussy! I will need submissions by Saturday 29th October.

Music Carnival - 6th December

Again it can be on any aspect of music, what you like, what you hates, gigs you've been too, ones you wished you been too.

I would like submissions by Saturday 3rd December.

You can email them to me at

I am really looking forward to your posts. 

Image: dan /

Sunday, 16 October 2011

The Sunday Chill Out -

My new favourite artist is Ben Howard, I have been listening to his new album Every Kingdom on Spotify all week.

I find his music mellow but really catchy at the same time, I can listen to him sing all day. No track is under 4 minutes which I like, you really get a chance to be drawn into the music.

I was really torn between what tracks to share with you today as there is two a really love, The Wolves and Keep You Head up so I have decided to give you both!

Saturday, 15 October 2011

Sing Along Saturday - Happy Birthday Daddy

Today is my dad's birthday so I am dedicating this weeks Sing Along Saturday to him.

This has been a real tough one to choose so I thought I would go with a song from the very first gig that I ever went to. 

Me and my sister really wanted to go and see Jason Donovan but my dad refused to take us and took us to see Kylie Minogue instead.  Don't get me wrong at aged 11 I was a big fan of both I just like Jason that little bit more.

We had a great time dancing in the aisle at London docklands and my dad was happy to see her in her skimpy costumes!

So in honour of my Daddy's birthday this weeks Sing Along Saturday track is.....

Friday, 14 October 2011

That Dress

I can't confess to being a fashionable person but the dress I wore recently to the MAD Blog awards has been very popular, obviously its the way I wore it!

So here it is..

The dress is from Simply Be is the Grazia Lace Tunic Dress and costs £59 and is available in sizes 14 to 32.

Its a two piece dress consisting of a purple under dress with adjustable straps (great for short people like me) and a black lace over dress.

I found it really comfortable to wear and the lace dress is slightly stretchy.  It also has a black ribbon that ties at the back which helps pull in the waist.

It washed really well and didn't shrink and the best thing is it doesn't need ironing!

This is going to be my Christmas dress this year, perfect for hiding my big tummy after dinner!

A huge thanks again to Simply Be for providing my dress. 

Friday, 7 October 2011

I Only Went and Ruddy Won!

This time last week I was getting ready to go to that there London for the MAD Blog Awards. I meet Becky and Lyndsey at Kings Cross and we took a cab to the hotel, we checked in and quickly dumped our bags and went for some food. It was really nice just to sit down and have a chat and relax.

Soon it was time to get glammed up with my roommate Karen and the lovely Sophie who also joined us. It’s been years since I’ve got ready with the ‘girls’.

We arrived at the Talk Talk Custer Service Centre to find a red carpet and a photographer taking celeb type photos.


I found the free wine and its slightly hazing from then onwards! I had a lovely time catching up with old friends and making new ones. I clapped and cheered for all the nominees and winners, who had a look of shock on their faces when they won.

I was up for blog post of the year; I wasn’t expecting to win and was sitting right at the back of the room when they called my blog out at the winner. And then the tears came and not a delicate tear running down my face. No big, fat, happy sobs!

Nickie, Carol, Muireean

I couldn't say anything but thank you and I really meant it. What I wanted to say was...

Thank you to everyone who nominated my post and then voted for it. You will never know how much it means to me that I post I have written has moved people to nominate me and say this is a great post, this had an effect on me. It’s not easy writing about depression but it’s cheaper than therapy.  Thank you very, very much.

OH sent me the funniest text:

Time to get drunk!!! Don’t break your award, leave it in the taxi or sell it for more wine...

I don’t know he is trying to say!

Once the awards were all announced the fun began, I *may* have done Karaoke with Amy. It’s a good thing it wasn’t recorded, oh wait yes it was.

It was soon time to leave and like a fool I hit my head getting into the taxi (which I am blaming for my headache on the morning), we went back to hotel for a drink.  At some point in the evening Burger King was involved. I want to apologise to Karen for waking her up when I got back to the room.

I had a great night and it was nice to have a chat with people in the morning over breakfast.

I want to say a big thank you to Sally and Jen for organising it all, the sponsors, Simply Be for giving me my fantastic dress and to Nickie for presenting me with my award.

You can see all the amazing photo’s here (where I borrowed my glam photos from), you can see the list of winners here and the live stream here.

Sunday, 2 October 2011

Why You Shouldn't Litter

Life has a funny way of bitting you in the arse sometimes, as a young man found out last night.

Me and OH were on the tube on our way to Kings Cross last night when 3 girls and a guy got on. One of the girls has an empty coffee cup and we all know how heavy they can be to carry around. The guy with them decided to come to her rescue and lean out of the door and dump the empty cup on the platform.

As he did this his £280 Prada sunglasses slipped off his shirt and fell down the gap between the train and the platform and then the door shut. It took all my strength not to laugh out loud! A little giggle sneaked out but he didn't hear me.

The moral of the story? Don't litter (or show off in front of girls!)