Monday, 11 April 2011

Hi My Name is Carol and I Have Depression.

Today see’s the start of Depression Awareness Week .  

Held every year in April, Depression Awareness Week™ is a fantastic opportunity to raise awareness, vital funds for Depression Alliance and try to end the stigma associated with depression.

I have written about my depression on a few blogs as a guest poster and on my own. However I have found since I have started Dance without Sleeping that I have been writing about it more regularly, it wasn’t the plan but it is really helping me through my current bout of depression. Admitting that something is wrong is the first step to getting better.

I have had bouts of depression since my teens but I was only brave enough to go to the doctors a few years ago when I was going through a really tough time. It was really difficult at first to tell people “I have depression”. You worry they will look at your different or think you are dangerous. But I found that everyone was really supportive and many of my friends and family had experienced depression in some form. I didn’t feel alone anymore or like I was the only one.

Depression is different for everyone, for me I become withdrawn and listless. I lose all motivation to do anything and want to hide away in doors. I feel very low and sad. That’s not an easy thing to cope with especially when you are home with a toddler all day. Sometimes I feel like I am a bad mum as I don’t want to do anything, those are the days that the TV stays on a little too long. I don’t neglect BG, but I just go through the motions, like I am on auto pilot.

I also worry that BG will develop depression as it can be hereditary. She already so aware of different emotions and can tell if someone is sad or happy.

Medication is working for me at the moment. I took a break for a short time and realised that I do need them for now. I hope I am not on them forever but if that’s the way it has to be then so be it.

If you think you are suffering with depression, please don’t keep it to yourself. Get help or speak to someone about it.

These sites may help you.


  1. Lovely post I have suffered with depression in the past I'm currently ok but lost a couple of family members over it who didn't 'approve'.

  2. Excellent post. Your reaction to depression is very similar to mine and I'm going through it at the moment. This time it was brought on by Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and work unhappiness, but this isn't the first bout and it won't be the last.

    It's such a positive thing to read someone's account where they own up to it and aren't ashamed, and I guess that's what Depression Awareness should be. It is an illness and everyone should treat it as such.

  3. Anon - Bless you, I can't believe people don't approve like its a life choice.

    Beadziod - Thank you, it feels so much better be open and honest

    Lorraine The Party Times - Thank you

  4. Such a positive post - thank you for sharing. I work with people who suffer from depression, and this post would really help to show them that they are not alone.